follow the flock.

seeg @ 2008-01-29T18:20:00

2008-01-29T23:21:06Z

so, somephotography.com is gone forever. i'm over it. the real question is, what should i use instead?

ellephotography.com
lolarosephotography.com

you can be confident in knowing i'm still as indecisive as ever.

seeg @ 2006-12-08T03:33:00

2006-12-08T07:33:41Z

what's this? a seeg update? you know what that means. trip to canada for me! well, it's over now. but i was there. and i thought of updating while there, but instead decided to update sean's journal for him. so here is my update on the trip. let's see if i recall everything.

this was the first non-alone trip to the center (centre?) of ontario. with tim the choke with me, we began our journey around 9:30 thursday evening, after tim finished working and we got gas and air in our tires. tim drove us to buffalo, and then i took over driving the rest of the way. we were kind of tired, and didn't really pay attention to the sign that said "canada" and accidentally stayed on I-90. this added an extra hour to our trip, and we called every boardie we could think of (a whole 3 people!) to try and relay the message to sean, but all but genesis hated us, and did not pick up the phone. genesis was working, so it made it difficult for her to post. so finally we called a friend back home and had him sign in as me and make a post. so if you see any weird messages from me anytime soon, it may actually be from him.

when we crossed the border, i somehow got a bit mixed up, and we ended up in the commercial truck entrance. it was a bit nerve-wracking, since i was between two trucks and wasn't sure if they knew i was there. i was afraid of getting crushed. but we made it to the border patrol alright, only to be reminded of the difference in height of trucks and my car. i stopped at the window, and yelled "hello!" to the lady in the booth 5 or so feet above me. she looked out, then looked down, and although she didn't show it, i'm sure she was making fun of me in her mind. i nearly dropped our IDs as i reached up and she reached out to receive them. she asked me who owned the vehicle, and i said i did. she looked at it as if she wanted to inspect it, but decided it wasn't worth the effort and, after reaching down again to return our IDs to us, waved us on. since it was darktime, we weren't able to really see the weird statues on the QEW. we did pay homage to jill as we passed her exit. and i didn't get confused getting on the 403, thanks to the awesome navigational skills of tim (which were actually just moderately awesome, since he did miss the sign that said 'canada' back in the states. but we won't fault him for that).

once we got on the 6, i decided to stop for gas, since i didn't think there would be a station for awhile. as it goes, it turns out there were quite a few, all of which were about $.04-.05 cheaper, but the man at our station was very nice and i'm glad we stopped there. i purchased a cappuccino and gigantic twix and snickers bars, and we were off again.

we arrive at joseph st. around 3:40 am. i slowly cruise down the street, as it had been 10 months since my last visit, and i couldn't recall exactly which house was his. however, as i pulled in front, i felt the familiarity of having been parked there before, and knew i was in the right place. my feeling was confirmed by a peeking sean, waving at us from the window of his former room, now studio. we exited the car, and he ran downstairs and opened his home to us. as he leaned forward and reached out with his long arms, his bony hands pulling and beckoning us inside, his deep husking voice inviting us to "come in," i was suddenly fearful, and for a moment considered going back to my car and returning to the states. but sean's sheer adorableness won me over, mostly because of his rugged, old man looking face, and i had no choice but to enter the mccarron home.

to be continued...

seeg @ 2006-10-24T17:50:00

2006-10-24T21:54:46Z

so far, today has been rather strange.

we ditched the rest of financial accounting, because sitting through that class is a joke, and i have like 105% anyway. unfortunately, tim can't say the same. well, he can about the jokefulness of the class. which is why we left. so we went to music go round to find solder. what we found instead was fake jesse ley, working alongside the real jesse ley! also, tim's [mandated edit: former] myspace crush was in there, watching the fake jesse ley tune a guitar. it took him quite awhile. he was probably trying to hit on her, despite the large, red-headed guy next to her. however, red-headed guys always tend to be rather tame, while red-headed girls are rather insane. weird? yes.

so we talked to real jesse ley for awhile, and i gave him $3.20, and he gave me solder and guitar strings. good deal for me, eh? i also looked for new glasses, but could not find a frame i liked. i'll probably do what i did last time, and buy frames for $10 from Spencer's or some place similar, and get lenses put in them for $50. but i must act quickly. i have 3 weeks.

i'm convinced i'm unboyfriendable. tim says it's not true. maybe i should conduct a poll.

fell in love with a boy.

2006-08-09T03:42:18Z

random white stripes song in my head. where'd that come from? i don't know!

i'll leave you all to wonder whether or not it's relevant. the status of my relationship, or perhaps lack thereof, should be a paling tidbit of information, as you are most likely overwhelmed by the fact that i'm actually updating. and there is no trip to or from canadians involved. perhaps i just missed you all? yeah, maybe.

anyway, 2006 has been a pretty awesome year, overall. i've travelled the continent and nearly died, but it was fun times. recently i've been able to have a taste of what it's like to have a best friend, and i quite enjoy it. i plan to hold on to it for as long as i can. and while there may not be an actual tap in the rockies producing coors light, the mountains do provide for some excellent fudge.

questions and comments are much appreciated. there's way too much to go into detail on everything, but i will be happy to expound if anyone cares.

i've never been one for fancy parties.

2006-01-01T02:42:51Z

mae - the everglow (1:01:06)
rainer maria - a better version of me (41:45)
mogwai - my father my king (20:13)
straylight run - straylight run (49:02)
cake - comfort eagle (36:52)
beach boys, the - pet sounds (1:16:40)
the kicks - hello hong kong (42:26)
amy grant - heart in motion (44:11)
suzanne vega - 99.9 Fº (37:19)
various - take time to listen vol. 5 (54:54)
soundtrack of our lives - behind the music (57:26)
britney spears - baby one more time (42:35)
new pornographers - twin cinema (47:46)
britney spears - baby one more time single (8:41)
snow patrol - final straw (43:52)
various - re:direction (1:10:47)
saves the day - i'm sorry i'm leaving (12:48)
ennui - inchoate (26:02)
jawbreaker - dear you (1:08:16)
plain white ts - all that we needed (40:14)
various - mono vs. stereo vol 1 (1:00:09)
chris issak - heart shaped world (46:05)
steve miller band - greatest hits (44:14)
mars volta - frances the mute (1:16:49)
catatonia - equally blessed and cursed (54:08)
seven day jesus - seven day jesus (40:00)
stray cats - runaway boys: a retrospective (1:17:43)
the rocket summer - hello, good friend (56:18)
sixpence none the richer - sixpence none the richer (50:45)
badly drawn boy - about a boy soundtrack (44:22)
bright eyes - there's no beginning to the story (19:04)
bobby conn - llovesongs (22:44)
jack johnson - in between dreams (40:54)
modest mouse - this is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about (1:13:58)
m. ward - end of amnesia (53:21)
various - that thing you do (42:09)

16:05:02:00

so, christmas was pretty awesome this year. i went to church in the morning, and then in the evening i went to dinner at my uncle's house. it was really nice to see family i hadn't seen in awhile. i really should do it more often. i thought it might be awkward, since i hate it when people ask me a lot of questions. but i actually didn't get much of that at all. i guess they all know what's going on with me since my mom keeps in touch with them all. i wish i'd been close to people growing up. i guess even from the beginning i've always been somewhat of a loner.

i'm not sure what i'm going to do tonight. there's a show i kind of want to see. and some people from church are getting together right now. but i think if i do anything, i'll go to my old church for watch night service. i loved that, the fellowship, then the candlelighting service. and it'll be good to see people there. but i'm exhausted, and i have a lot of work to do on the website. so i may just be lame and a geek, and work on that tonight. we'll see.

really, all i want to do is take a nap. is it lame i can't stay awake? i have been up for a really long time...

here's to hoping for an awesome 2006 for everyone. what are you most looking forward to?

seeg @ 2005-10-25T22:24:00

2005-10-26T02:24:44Z

matt pond pa - measure (34:04)
saves the day - stay what you are (33:30)
ben folds five - naked baby photos (55:17)
cerys matthews - cockahoop (34.33)
elliott smith - either/or (37:00)
new pornographers - electric version (46:43)
various - punk: it's all about the orchis factor (1:01:32)
e - a man called e (32:07)
eels - electro-shock blues (48:18)
ben folds five - ben folds five (46:14)
michael w. smith - i'll lead you home (1:03:12)
smalltown poets - smalltown poets (41:18)
michael w. smith - live the life (56:48)
elliott smith - division day/no name #6 (5:45)
the postal service - the district sleeps alone tonight single (21:20)
jeffries fan club - nothing to prove (43:23)
bright eyes - lifted (1:13:02)
bright eyes - fevers and mirrors (55:04)
the cure - lulluby single (25:23)
belle and sebastian - lazy painter jane (17:26)
jimmy eat world - futures (49:28)
jimmy eat world - futures demo (48:43)
belle and sebastian - fold your hands, child (40:46)
the beatles - let it be (35:04)
death cab for cutie - the photo album (39:04)
ben folds - songs for silverman (44:09)
matt pond pa - the nature of maps (38:21)
bright eyes - i'm wide awake, it's morning (45:35)

15:03:15:01

sorry if you were hoping for a real update.

seeg @ 2005-08-15T10:59:00

2005-08-15T14:59:39Z

i really should have decided to go see the Aquabats instead of Finch. i wish the rx bandits had toured with them instead. then it would have been no contest.

this not-so evil plan really could save the world.

2005-08-15T14:35:47Z

so, i've come up with a plan. how i'm going to execute this plan, i don't know. but at least i have a plan.

and what is this plan? well, i'm going to rent a movie theatre. but not for the sole purpose of showing movies. no, opening a new movie theatre would be a bad business move, as the theatre i want, which had been around for quite some time, was forced to close. i'm guessing due to Loews Theatre at the waterfront. i know i would prefer going there. so, no, no new place to see the latest blockbuster hits. so what else can you do with your own movie theatre? why, turn it into the ultimate place to find entertainment, that's what! in the main part of the theatre will be the performance room. also known as my very own concert venue. i may actually need to combine two rooms to have a large enough space, which would mean i'd need to buy instead of rent the theatre. but we'll see. in another room will be the music store. CDs and instruments. depending on how many rooms there are i may have one of each. another room will be the bookstore. and i'll have an actual theatre in another room. moreso to show indie films and student films, though. our own sundance. and in the foyer will be the coffee shop, which also serves light snacks, pastries and other refreshements. actually, considering the number of renovations i'd have to do, i probably will need to buy it. hmm...

so, now that i have a plan, all i need are investors. and blueprints. and a business partner that's much better than i am at convincing people they should give me money. it's totally possible, though. and i think it'd be the raddest place ever. maybe i can even get a contract with some big named organization to have live broadcasts, kind of like what the 9:30 Club does with NPR. then there'll be even more incentive for bands to come and play. this could be a good thing. this could be an awesome thing. i wish i knew how to make it happen.

seeg @ 2005-08-09T23:37:00

2005-08-10T03:37:59Z

so, somephotography.com has finally been updated. for as long as it's been, you'd think there'd be more to show for it. but, alas. such is life. greg's home, so perhaps i'll take fun hanging out pictures. he has a better camera than i do, though, so chances are i'll take them on his camera, and then never see them again. honestly, that's what happens to most of my pictures. digital doesn't matter if people never send you the files.

other than that, not much is going on in my life. i joined a gym for a two week trial. i doubt i'll stay there. it's bally total fitness, and i just don't like the atmosphere. it is nice that they have a pool. but so does club 1, and it's right around the corner from work, instead of 20 minutes away, so i'll be more likely to go right when i get off. there's no guarantee i'll do anything, though. i guess we'll see. um, i shoveled 64 gallons of gravel tonight. my annoying heart is being even more annoying daily.

and that's about all.

seeg @ 2005-07-31T16:25:00

2005-07-31T20:25:01Z

maybe, if i was as creative as one sean patrick mccarron, people would care about me, too.

but, alas. it's just not meant to be.

seeg @ 2005-06-10T21:37:00

2005-06-11T01:37:35Z

i haven't updated since sean and brad left? man, i'm lame. even more lame, because i have nothing to say. except that i miss them. and others. i've been surrounded by people lately, yet i feel very lonely.

i had coffee ice cream tonight for dinner, hoping it would help me to concentrate. if anything, it seems to have enhanced my lack of focus. maybe i'll try to write. oh, wait. that's what i'm doing now...

we've been talking about the end time and everything a lot lately. sometimes i get overwhelmed with excitement thinking about it. i'll be glad for a time of no worries. that joy gives me peace.

i can't concentrate on anything at all. and my nap coupled with the ice cream pretty much ruins all thought of going to bed early. maybe i'll bang on my keyboard for awhile.

seeg @ 2005-03-23T14:38:00

2005-03-23T19:38:18Z

no one has updated since sunday? such slackers we are.

or perhaps there's not much to talk about. monday, we played disc golf. tuesday, we baked stuff. wednesday is today. they go home today. today is sad.

although, that may be attributed to the rain.

so much rock

2005-03-22T01:36:17Z

today i took the boys to record exchange. two record exchanges, actually. sean bought a ton of cds. as did i. and i shall proceed to list them here:

the mars volta - frances the mute
the new pornographers - electric version
elliott smith - either/or
eels - electro-shock blues
cerys matthews - cockahoop
e - a man called e
steve miller band - greatest hits
ben folds five - naked baby photos
son, ambulance - son, ambulance

i'm not sure how much i paid for them, but together, sean and i spent $87.19. he'll have his list up soon enough. brad exercised restraint and didn't get nearly as many. or perhaps he just couldn't find much.

what else? um, disc golf today. i was the only one there who'd played before, yet we all played pretty evenly. why? because i'm awful, that's why. it was a good time. yet muddy. i got mud in my shoes and it was icky.

now i am quite tired. so so tired. if you ever thought the dragons show on the animal channel looked interesting, you were wrong. so so wrong.

i now have a sleeping sean on my arm. and a sleeping brad on the mattress at my feet. i wish i could keep them here forever.

seeg @ 2005-03-20T15:19:00

2005-03-20T20:43:16Z

it's so hard to believe it is now day 4 of brad and sean's visit.
since i know sean won't update his journal about the trip, i'll give you all a brief synopsis of what's been going on.

thursday was a day of much driving. we got free cookies. and learned the secret to hunting quail.

friday was a day of not as much driving but still quite a bit. we got free brownies. and saw jack-jack attack.

saturday was a day of recreation. i got a free game of DDR. and sean, brian and i were rockstars.

sunday has been a day of rest. we didn't really get anything for free. but the day's not over yet.

seeg @ 2005-03-18T17:36:00

2005-03-18T22:36:30Z

sean. is awesome.
that's all i have to say about that.

brad, what should i say about you?
brad. is good looking.

mike won't read this, so i can say anything about him, and it wouldn't matter.

what is the perk of sharing a hotel room with 3 guys? getting a bed to yourself while watching the others share.

well, and then some. it's too bad i didn't have my camera.

i miss mike. it's too bad he lives on the other side of the state. he's such a fun guy.

genesis, what happened to you? i tried to call you, but we got disconnected or something. i hope you didn't drive out and we left without seeing you. although, either way, i'm sad we didn't get to hang out. you'll have to come to state college now.

this should be a fun week. tim, you have to come hang out with us sometime. even if it's just so that we can walk around. i think we're going to go to CeCe's Pizza in Cranberry/Mars when they leave, so perhaps you can come to that? Other than that, I'm not too sure what's going on this week. We'll keep you informed. Oh, there's also Tuesday night bible study. We'll be there, and then probably go out to eat before or after.

we need to take a mad amount of pictures. like now.

seeg @ 2005-03-12T07:34:00

2005-03-12T13:21:28Z

hey sean, you should double check with greyhound and find out when the last day is you can get a companion ticket. i know in the past it's been 3 days advance purchase, but it's different now, so i'm not sure what the new policy is.

seeg @ 2005-03-10T20:31:00

2005-03-11T01:31:45Z

<a href="http://www.surfjunky.com/?r=seeg>clicky to make money</a> one week.

seeg @ 2005-03-08T14:13:00

2005-03-08T19:13:44Z

jurassic 5 - power in numbers (56:17)
denali - denali (44:40)
ben folds - unautobiographical... (40:35)
the sea and cake - oui (40:41)
cursive - the ugly organ (40:16)
modest mouse - the moon and antartica (59:43)
sunny day real estate - the rising tide (52:08)
moby - play (1:03:12)
marcy playground - marcy playground (34:41)
and you will know us by the trail of dead (15:07)
soul junk - 1956 (1:03:38)
arlo - up high in night (35:21)
further seems forever - the moon is down (38:53)
nirvana - nevermind (42:38)
wedding singer soundtrack volume 2 (46:14)
ben folds live (1:11:17)
the cure - the cure (51:29)
pedro the lion - achilles heel (40:25)
duraluxe - dolorosa (40:07)
green day - nimrod (49:09)
marvin gaye in concert (1:02:55)
the thermals - fuckin a (28:02)
outer circle - outer circle (28:04)

2005 is turning out to be a pretty good year. things are looking up for our family. my mom has finally found a way to get her finances in order. that's a big feat for a 25 year single mom who's going to be 52 next month, and spent several years on disability. now if only i can stop her from giving into scams so she doesn't end up with a super lame, overpriced laptop that doesn't even work... i'm excited about getting stuff fixed around here. i may even be able to make something out of the basement. if we have enough money.

9 days. i'm so excited. i need to find someone to go to the bus station still, though.

i really really need to exercise.

seeg @ 2005-03-05T20:14:00

2005-03-06T01:14:44Z

You scored 93% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 93% Advanced, and 61% Expert!

i don't know how i missed a beginner question.
oh, perhaps it's because i'm ridiculously tired.

i need to make pasta, but i don't feel like it.
even though all it involves is boiling noodles...

seeg @ 2005-03-01T23:18:00

2005-03-02T04:18:30Z

sean, i asked the college group tonight about picking you up, and lance said we'll definitely have someone there.

and mike is hopefully getting a car to go see roper.

now all we have to do is make sure keegan comes.

this is going to be the best st. patrick's day ever.

seeg @ 2005-02-27T21:10:00

2005-02-28T02:10:24Z

for some reason, "it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday" popped into my head. and now i want to cry.

i miss my middle school/high school years. i miss my old friends. i miss spending the night at camp. i miss not having to worry about life and work and money and all the things that consume us but aren't really important.

i'm really glad for my life now. i'm glad i have people who love me. and a job that i moderately like which pays me moderately well. i have several plans for the future, at least one of which may actually pan out. and i'm both talented and attractive, which means i have a higher self esteem than i did back then.

timothy, you need to become more active, so i can see you as often as i do everyone else. or at least sign on to AIM more often.

sean will be here in 2 weeks and 2ish days. i really need to clean.

i really love having long talks about everything and nothing. if we can just hang out and talk for hours, you can be [one of] my best friend[s].

i really like using brackets. even though my use of them is improper.

sometimes i really wish i had a brother.

seeg @ 2005-02-18T18:03:00

2005-02-18T23:02:51Z

mr. smalls would be a great venue if it weren't in millvale... i hate going there, so i don't. and now i'm going to miss the switch show, too. except, i'm not exactly missing it, because to miss something would require an intial attempt, and i don't plan to even attempt it.

tim, you should come to the college night at CMU today, because i made cookies. although, it starts in an hour, so it's probably not enough notice... i'll have to make cookies another time when i know you'll be around.

i feel like i should say something else. but, really, that's all.

seeg @ 2005-02-17T11:50:00

2005-02-17T16:50:25Z

here's an update about my life. because you don't get those often.

things began getting better saturday afternoon. so thanks to everyone who prayed for me. it was felt. i played football for about 20 minutes, then went to go see justin mcroberts. during the show, i was just filled with an overabundance of joy, i couldn't stop smiling. i also made a new friend. which is always lovely.

sunday was even better, and i was all kinds of happy all day. which was lovely, and bled into monday. and tuesday and yesterday. and now i have nothing to do, and it's quite exquisite and rare and i just enjoy it a lot.

it was sad that my camera decided to be unfixed. i have to go back to best buy and hope they give me my money back.

seeg @ 2005-02-15T19:36:00

2005-02-16T00:35:45Z

tim, i'm going to go to CMU friday night, and then to the Switch show. since your parents think you should start going there anyway, they can bring you to oakland friday, and i can bring you home after the concert. or even pick you up if they don't want to come to the city. if they're okay with it.

i'm off to get ice cream now. yum.

seeg @ 2005-02-15T04:06:00

2005-02-15T09:05:30Z

I had organized a talent show somewhere, and we were all getting ready to start. Airen was the first performer, and at least one of my friends there either really didn't like her, or just didn't like the fact that she was performing in our talent show. I think Airen was aware of it, but humbly kept to herself. The girl who disliked her kept talking about ways to sabotage her performance, but I got her to sit down, and sat with her. Airen was first, and she'd recruited two of her friends to play trumpet during her song. They started out with a beautifully haunting cadence, and then she went into her song that I didn't really hear.

While she was singing/they were playing, the stars started dancing in the sky. (We were sitting on a hill, so the sky seemed to be right in front of us). They would move quickly to one side, and then to the other. It reminded me of one time when i saw a flock of birds flying, and they didn't really seem to have a destination, they were kind of playing follow the leader, and flew around a lot. Eventually the stars started making patterns, and it was accompanied by a lots of lights and colour changes in the sky. It looked like a kaleidescope.

I seemed to be the only one watching this, so I pointed it out to the people sitting next to me, one of whom was Dave Winters. The clouds started to turn into wings, and one of us said "God's going to come back for us really soon." Then we watched for a few more moments, and realized that the wings were attached to a horse, and the horse began to rise up and take full form. We realized it was actually there, and not just another illusion of the sky. Dave said, "it looks like He's coming for us right now!" and the horse began to fly over us, and behind it was a trail of white. The white began to wash over everyone in front of us, and I woke up right as it got to us.